Day One...Again!

Have you ever had the opportunity to speak to an old friend that you haven't seen or spoken to in years?  It is kind of awkward at first isn't it?  The conversation is a little superficial at first and then it moves into the "Do you still know..." or the "Do remember when..." questions.  You quickly realize that you have changed over the years, things you did at that time in your life...you no longer do.  As we get older, our priorities change and sometimes our likes and dislikes change as well.  It usually doesn't take very long when speaking to your old friend for the memories to start coming back to your mind.  Feelings and emotions start to resurface and you find yourself feeling like you and your old friend have never been apart.  I just had a similar experience with this blog.  For some unknown reason, I decided to see if my account was still active with Blogger and to my surprise...it is!  I have had a couple of blogs over the years and I started this one back in January of 2012.  It had one post made to it and I never posted anything to it or even viewed it at all until today.  I was reading a lot of weight loss blogs back then hoping to get inspired and get the same results for myself.  Prior to this blog, I had one that I had posted to for almost a year before getting frustrated and decided to delete it.  I wanted the weight to fall off of me like it did all of the other bloggers that I read about everyday but I didn't get the results like they did and I totally gave up.  Heck, if I would have stuck to my health plan, I would be super buff these days!  Instead, I totally let the frustration of it all get to me and I went back to what I know best...the comfort of food.  When I saw my "old friend" blog, I remembered so much about what I wanted to accomplish and how important it is that I get healthy!  Old feelings and emotions started flooding back to me and a renewed since of determination has surfaced.  So, here I sit at the computer and started up my blog again.  There are things that I have learned about some of the successful bloggers that I have read and continue to read these days.  The most important thing I think is vital to the success of using a blog for accountability is HONESTY!  In my past attempts, I wasn't honest with myself and I would only post my successes and never my failures.  I worried about what other people thought too much and wrote more for them than myself.  When using a blog as a tool to have accountability in your weight loss journey...you are doomed to fail if you are not honest in what you post.  I will keep this blog honest, I will post my successes and I will have a lot of them but I will also post about my struggles and my failures which I will no doubt encounter from time to time.  So here we go, here is a new start for day 1 in this journey to better health.  Here is the embarrassing truth about the state of my life right now:
As a result of my lack of dedication and lack of exercise...I have ballooned to 465 lbs...the highest weight of my life! I can't even stand on my feet for more than 5 minutes without the sciatic pain kicking in.  I can't get up and walk out to the mail box in my front yard without getting out of breath!  I have been a total couch potato with virtually no exercise in the last couple of years!  I have sky rocketed to a size 64 waist which absolutely sickens me to realize.  I wear a  6xl shirt and it is very difficult and very expensive finding cloths that will fit me!  Obesity has robbed me of my life, I can't go to concerts or sports events because I can't fit in the stadium seats.  I can't fit into restaurant booths or ride the rides at theme parks because I can't fit in the seats or the harness doesn't fit.  I can't even go shopping with my wife, it is a miserable trip for me because I hurt and get drenched with sweat after just a few minutes into it.  I hurt physically almost constantly!  I cannot remember a time when something on my body hasn't ached or hurt.  Even sitting has gotten to be uncomfortable...which is truly pathetic!  I am so sick of being fat...something has to change!  So, I will periodically post about what is happening in my weight loss and spiritual journey.  Thanks for reading!